Roddy Piper

"I have come here to chew bubblegum and kick ass. And I'm all out of bubblegum."

--Roddy Piper, "They Live"

more soon, but this reflects my mental state at the moment.
:)

The Cruise

"The anti-cruise is an attempt to imprison us. At every level of living it exists. Younger cruisers have asked me, 'Why? Why is the anti-cruise so avaricious and constant in its attempt to stop the cruise?' And I have no answer. There is no answer. I mean, it's gravitational, it's a relationship that's made up of reciprocals and pulling gravities. It simply exists. Where there is cruise there is an escort of anti-cruise. But even in a bastion of anti-cruise fodder... there is cruise. Somewhere in there is a sparkle of cruising energy. Deeply sublimated, within the bellowing belly of the beast.

--Speed Levitch, "The Cruise"

the age of anxiety

L.A. has the best apocalyptic-looking sunsets ever. I don't even have to leave the house to get a great shot! I like this one, it's moody.

Sometimes reading a book can just transport you, but sometimes it can put you over the edge. I'm reading a book about one's own personal achetypes, and it's good, but so very hard. ANd all these lonely images of myself keep coming to mind. Maybe things are more vivid to me when I'm alone? I don't know. I have this one image of a little me, holding someone's hand, being led around, feeling drained, like I have been sick or I'm recuperating from something. I suppose you don't have to be a rocket scientist to figure that one out, what with my adoption issues etc.

Am I just alone on the inside, all the time? That is not my only side, I do know that.

Also for the past few days I close my eyes and am back in San Francisco, just me, walking alone a lot like I used to do. Just me and my MBTs. Roaming all over. All by myself. Sometimes with not very much money. Trying to take care of myself. Trying to appreciate thinsg for what they are and not freak out about what I don't have. WAlking home from work, walking to the store, walking to Peet's, Trader Joe's, Mel's, up Fillmore to Washington, just walking to gt out.

Mo and Mavis are making breakfast and I should go join them, but--I was going to say I haven't had the chance, but that's not true--I haven't had the presence of mind to be writing much and I really do want to be. It is totally part of my self-care that I have been pushing aside. The new job is definitely tiring, and the everything else is tiring too. But I need to be doing this.

Mavis doesn't know it yet but we are going to get some cats today! She is going to be surprised. Of course she isn't here all the time so we'll be sharing responsibilities, but it'll be fun and good for her to have some creatures to look after. I interviewed the Director of LA Animal Services this week, so I made an arrangement to have someone help us out today.

It's 2008!

And now let us welcome the new year,
full of things that have never been.

--Rilke

Save Bindi!

http://jezebel.com/gossip/clips/bindi-irwin-does-white+girl-rap-on-today-325921.php

Worst thing I've seen in a very long time. Paging Child Protective Services...

the droopster

Here's an odd pic but it portrays my inner state rather well: droopy and weird. These are some flowers that Mo gave me. They looked quite lovely about 10 days ago.

That's a paper bag next to the flowers--Mo bought burritos for dinner at this little place in East L.A. near his parents. And you are seeing reflection of the kitchen counter in the glass doors.

Artistic, eh? If I was in 10th grade photo class circa 1983 I'd give myself a B+.

Thanksgiving memories

LT & GW on a boat.

Lots of food. Lots of movies. Lots of couch time. Monkey wearing a woolen poncho and not even caring.

Elise and Joe and Linda and Steve and Clay.

Two burned pies--but just on the top and everyone likes burned stuff anyway.